So, I’m sitting here in my living room four days out from teaching my very first class…I have AC certification things due (about 8 hours of video worth and a chapter of homework), my classroom isn’t quite finished, I’m missing important training for my school, I have a fever and I’m not quite sure what that means after a surgery, and I don’t really have my lesson plans worked out, as well! Oh, and I’m really sore from my surgery I had yesterday–yeah, the surgery I had no clue was going to happen when I went in for a doctor’s appointment on Monday.
BUT…I’m not complaining (at all)–I’m just setting the tone for where I am right now. I see all the things that need to get done and it would be really easy to get overwhelmed and upset, but I won’t. I won’t because I know they will be accomplished and it won’t be through my own strength. There have been quite a few ups and downs on this journey to TX from VA. My car overheated on the way from Induction in Dallas to Houston Institute, I got the bill for my new engine, I’ve had moments of self-doubt and loneliness, to moments of “this is what I was born to do” and “I’d rather be here doing this than anything else in the world”, and then I fell in love with sixteen students in a sixth grade ELAR classroom in Houston. They are the perfect reminder I need to take me back to why I am here in the first place. I am here because I believe in Teach for America and it’s mission, and more importantly, I believe that this is where God wants me to be. He’s been there with me through every step of this process and when I start to feel glum I just have to remember that he didn’t bring me this far for me to fail. I have to remember the promise he gave me to be a pillar of fire by night and a cloud by day.
Alright, I’m gonna go tackle some of those things on my to-do list and hold off on taking any more painkillers.